•Monday, May 05, 2008•

It's been a while since I talked about me. My life's settled down a little more, and things are starting to wave over instead of being a turbulent storm all the time. Shockingly (or not, maybe, I dunno), John, Pat and myself have all come to terms, and we've been hanging out and enjoying each other's company again. It's nice to have a friend back with no strings attached; we're all friends again because we want to be. Marty's gotten further away, physically and metaphorically. It's not painful, though- I've gotten pretty tired of trying to keep up with him if he doesn't want to keep up with us. I've tried to morph my life into something less stressful, so I'm not striving to hold onto anything that isn't in it to win it. I've been much happier that way, too. My room is once again a wreck though..sigh.

•Monday, April 21, 2008•

Well well well, Minerva, Goddess of the Lifestream. We meet again.

..and I totally pwnt her! Crisis Core Mission Percentage: 100% Complete. All missions, all DMW gallery % and images, everrrryyyything. I have now mastered Crisis Core. Ahh, reveling in the glory. Minerva whooped me a few times before I *maxed* my VIT (the difference between 223/255 and 255/255 is the difference between taking 99,999 damage and 31,000 damage.) and went in to fight. Took about...15 minutes, never died, and I am now the owner of a Divine Slayer and Heike Soul! W00t.

•Tuesday, April 15, 2008•

[up] is the most BALLIN'EST AMV evar. You want to see the real story? The Cloud you thought you knew? The man he wanted to be? BOOM- it's all rolled into a bad ass AMV for your viewing pleasure. It's so amazing man. Not to mention I've *still* been playing Crisis Core; I'm 82% through with missions, so I figured I'd beat them all, try to beat Minerva, then revel in the glory that is my pwnSave File.

•Friday, April 11, 2008•

Crisis Core has got to win the "Ending that Makes Mel Most Emo" Award of the year. It was a fantastic, amazing game...the ending was just way more than I had anticipated. I already knew the outcome-- *spoiler alert if you haven't completed VII or seen Advent Children* .....Zack was already dead in FFVII and, obviously, in Advent Children. I just didn't....expect it to be so graphic. But I cried for a few hours. Ohhhman.

•Sunday, April 06, 2008•

I have been playing Crisis Core: FFVII like a fiend. I've already logged over 40 hours into the game, which is kind of why I haven't updated in a while. It's so good! I'm nearing the end now, and I kinda don't want to beat it; I know what happens to Zack. He's kind of already dead in VII and Advent Children...but I must see what happens! I'm also either 61 or 62% complete with the missions part. It has sucked my life away! But at least it's a good place to be. Lifestream, here I come!

•Saturday, March 29, 2008•

Yeah so... the other day, after feeling like total poop from infection-rash thingy in my wrist, I decide to just go home, take medicine and chill out. So I figured I'd play some 360 games and laze around. Well...after a little bit of playing XI, my 360 freezes...and the red ring of death appears!! Wahh. So I go exchange it for another one...play that one for an hour...red ring of death. W...T....F. So yesterday, I go grab yet another one. I play it for a few hours, trying to level Dancer on XI....glitchy-freezy thing happens....red ring of death. I am so pissed off at XBOXes right now. I've gone through 3 freakin' 360s in two days. It sucks total balls. Not only because I can't play XI, but also the fact that I've had an ass-expensive paperweight three times in a row. GET ON TEH BALLz, MICROSOFT.

•Wednesday, March 26, 2008•

I have been such a lazy jerk about updating my site lately. I've been getting inspired! I've scavenged eBay for awesome Japanese street fashion, and found a pwnage corset:

And, considering I had to have it, I bought it! It's ubercute on me and makes me giddy like a schoolgirl. I'm trying to get back to being me. Not a watered-down, used-to-be-cool shell of my old self like I have been for a while. In retrospect, maybe that's why Kate ran away all those years ago-- this town does seem to suck the color right out of you, until you're plain Jane like everyone else. Not that I plan on going on a drug-fueled rampage of a runaway like she did, but maybe I see more of what made her crazy. You lose face a lot in this place. But I digress; talk of the ugly parts of the past will get you nowhere sooner. Life's not exactly the most exciting thing in my one-horse town, but it'll do just fine for now. Hopes, dreams, thoughts-- got to get back to those. Those things that made me happy.

•Tuesday, March 04, 2008•

I haven't said a word on me in a long time. But I will say, I've become so much happier lately. Marty and I finally came to terms, he changed his ways, we are doing better now. Jack came back into our lives, which eased a lot of tension off everyone. Pat and I have actually done a lot better lately, too. Aside from some work problems, every thing's actually been going up.

•Wednesday, February 20, 2008•

I had surgery on my ganglionic (sp?) cyst today. I feel a little wonky but overall I'm all right. My fingers stopped hurting, too. HurraY! Now, for lists, because, as XBMagazine says, everyone loves lists. According to Gamedaily.com...
Top 10 Games Your Boyfriend is Cheating on You With:
1)World of Warcraft
2)Halo 3
3)Call of Duty 4
4)Gears of War
5)Madden 08
6)Pokemon (lol didn't expect this one..)
7)Mass Effect (and its alien porn)
8)Elder Scrolls: Oblivion
9)Final Fantasy XII
10)Poker Smash (who?)
So there you have it.

•Sunday, February 17, 2008•

I tell you, I don't even know what to do with myself. I'm so tired of being strained, held back. I didn't get to do what all I wanted to do today. Instead I was doing whatever everyone else wanted to do. I'm so tired of being SURROUNDED BY PEOPLE freaking shit. I am not one to constantly be surrounded by loud, obnoxious, boisterous people, most of which I don't like. I don't like not doing my own thing. I'm not a selfish bitch about it, but when this is my only real off day this week (considering I have surgery on my wrist Wednesday...), I'd like to just do MY THING. Just starting to feel like a prisoner... well, not starting, but continuing to feel that way. My mind is so.....I don't even know what. Shattered, cracked? Starting to feel like Curian in Kingdom Under Fire:Circle of Doom..

•Thursday, February 14, 2008•

A Valentine's to remember.. Yeah, it's been one for the uber-romantic records. In the same way feces is.

•Tuesday, February 12, 2008•

I've had a lot of ups and downs lately. I've felt lonely, excited, RANDY!, happy, sad, distraught, and just about everything in between. I've felt a need for commitment, love, friends...I've felt inspired and desolate. I've missed old friends, almost relapsed on bad habits... what a whirlwind, huh?

•Tuesday, February 05, 2008•

My Windurstian Ring came in today. It's absolutely gorgeous. I never even knew the Windurstian Ring looked like this in game until I got it; I thought it only had a blue gem in it, but now I see perfectly what it really looks like.
.VS.
It's really fantastic!

•Monday, February 04, 2008•

Hohmaigawd. My Leon Statue came in today! YEEHAW. I shall take pics and show ALL I PROMISE YUMMMMMM. ♥ He came in a fancy box and everything. Even better than expected! WHOO!

•Sunday, February 03, 2008•

I feel like I'm stuck in a straitjacket in a circular padded room. I'm off today but I have NO clue what to do with myself. I was trying to play XI but I'm too impatient to try and look for party for forever. I'm so fidgety. It's just one of those days, I guess. At least a good part about today is that it's Mom's birthday! I got her the new Dean Koontz and Stephen King books- she loved em! Hurray! In other news, I finally received confirmation on my Windurstian Ring and it should be delivered within a few days. My Leon statue *almost* got delivered yesterday but no one was here to sign for it, so I have to pick it up tomorrow from the gayballs Post Office.

•Monday, January 28, 2008•

I'm pretty excited- my Leon Kennedy Statue shipped this week! I can't wait to get it in. I also have my Windurstian Ring on the way....or something. Apparently SquareEnix's customer service has no clue where my package is, and it's maybe on the way they are sure it is, just not sure where and whether or not UPS has it, or if it shipped, maybe, yes. Yeah, read that twice. On the flip side of life, everything's still in a landslide; it's all or nothing now. Negotiations must begin.

•Thursday, January 24, 2008•

It's so hard not to be bitter in a world that tastes so fucking sour. It's been douchebag after douchebag lately. FUCK PEOPLE- BE NICE FOR ONCE. MAYBE SOMEONE MIGHT LIKE YOU. People are so disgustingly bitter and touchy and nauseatingly defensive with the utmost sarcasm as a shield. HERE, let me act like a COMPLETE TOOL and that'll make my penis seem larger! I swear that's what the world is thinking. "Oh it's such a drag-- what a chore-- all your wounds are full of salt. Every thing's a stretch, and what's more? It's always someone else's fault. HEY-- get-get-get-get-GET OVER IT." I swear that song will make you think about it. Go listen: Ok Go- Get Over It.

•Sunday, January 20, 2008•

"I'm so sick- infected with where I live; let me live without this empty bliss, selfishness..I'm so...I'm so sick."